It’s so hard to know what the next step we should take is.

That’s a struggle I’ve been having. I’ve dreamt of so many things. But, the most pronounced is serving my country. It started when I was a little girl. It seemed so perfect, I thought I had taken all the right steps. I prayed over and over for years about it. I had a friend who prayed about it for a while. I had a branch and even an occupational specialty picked. Covid came and suddenly the path had a bunch of road blocks. But, after a lot of time and prayer (though I don’t know how much the prayer was a factor now), and some direction shifting, it was all worked out. Everything was different but I was excited. I had found a job that matched my religious beliefs and personal convictions.

That wasn’t God’s plan though. After beginning the process, I found out I didn’t qualify for any service. I have had some other ideas for a next step, but I have doubted them all.

Sometimes what we are looking for is a solid yes or no, a clearly marked or well-lit path. That’s usually not what we get though.

The yeses we get from God are often soft and truly for the ones focused on Him.

Sometimes, it’s that friend who casually mentions something related to that thing you aren’t sure about. Sometimes it’s an offer that seems almost unrelated but it just might be a first step. Or that almost perfect stranger saying you’re good at something.

Often we won’t take that first step into the fog. But, the point is–stop looking for screams. Listen in the loud for the whispers. Look for the glow instead of the light.